We were flirting a bit. He is a handsome Marine and I’m fucking horny, how could I not. He was brining me beers and opening them. His mom and my dad were taking and he was playing me music videos. He only talked a bit about his time in Iraq clearing IEDs. When my Dad talked about death I was distracted by wondering how much death he had seen overseas.
He was playful and quietly teased he thought he could get my dad to dance. He tried playfully to get him to boogie getting some good laughs for his efforts. It was really quite charming. At some point in the conversation I let “Get ‘er done.” Oh, how he teased me. I don’t look like a get ‘er done chick. Betty bangs, flower in my hair, gauges in my ears. I reminded him I’m hanging out with my dad in a trailer park of course I have a rough side.
Shortly after he came back with a 2nd 18 pack his mom who was his ride said she had to go home to her new husband and she would need to drop him off at his grandmothers where he was staying while he is going to school. I liked him and wanted our flirting to continue so I kept him. He was new to the area and having fun his mom thought it was a good idea.
It was getting later and my Uncle, his step daughter and her fiancé had just come over to see my Dad. They are a rough crowd, fitting more than one “You might be a redneck” stereo types. My new Marine friend had no jacket so he went into the house. I followed him in. He put on some more danceable music and he tried to get me to dance. I wasn’t feeling taking the lead so I kept hoping he’d slide into me and press his hips against mine getting me started but he never did.
Getting pretty tipsy I was getting more flirty and so was he. He caught me giggling to myself and asked why I was laughing at him. After trying my best not to answer (knowing my answer would push things further), I gave in and said it’s because I think he’s cute.
We decided to try a game of chess. While looking for the chess board he put his hand arround my waist here and there. Our game was set and as I was contemplating a move he poked the side of my boob and smiled at me. I went back to concentrating and made a pretty strong move. Things escalated in the name of distraction. Tickeling and grabbing trying to throw off each others game. He finally got brave and kissed my neck. I leaned over to him and kissed him back. Then back to concentrating on the game.
I ran my hand up his leg and he did the same to me. Next thing you know he leans over and bites me hard on the neck. Oh how wonderful, chills over my whole body. Like he knows what I want to hear he asks if I want him to dominate me. He pulls up my shirt and bites my nipple and I’m running my hands over his muscular chest. I’m suddenly yanked on top of him kissing him passionately as he grinds into me from below. I hear footsteps.
My Dad pops in, grabs a few beers and then back out. We keep making out in short bursts I’m nervous I don’t want to do anything to bother my Dad (not to say he would be upset but I don’t want to have him feel like he needs to keep a secret of mine). I stand up and try to keep my distance. He steps into me kissing me hard and pushes me over the side of the couch grinding his hard-on into me. I let my weight drop back and we end up on the floor…me on top grinding him putting my breasts in his face.
I get nervous again. Back to playing chess, rubbing legs, chests, little bites and kisses. My hand starts to evaluate the shape of his cock. It’s just right for a lot of fun. It’s hard and ready. He pulls it out and brings my hand down to stroke his shaft while he rubs my pussy through my pants. I start to get shy again and put my chess face back on and he squeezes his cock teasing me with what I want. I can see the tip shimmer with pre-cum and he wants me to put his hard member into my mouth.
I want to play but oh God I don’t want my Dad to come in and me with my boobs out and cock in my mouth. I tell him no with a smile. He wipes it off with his finger and has me suck off the juices. I can hear my uncle leaving so we button ourselves up for some good byes. My Dad is now seeing them off and having another smoke. My Marine friend is following me arround as I’m cleaning up. Stealing kisses, grabbing and rubbing me. When I bend over to get the trash he slides his hand down the back of my pants into my panties. He slides his finger along my wet lips driving me crazy. He wraps his other hand arround my waist and pulls me into him my back against his chest. Leaning in close his breath on my neck he bites me hard again while he slips two fingers inside of me. Holding me tight against him he works my ready pussy. He’s up to three fingers and I’m moaning and wiggling against his hold. Just a minute or two longer I’m bucking against him cumming in his hand. After he feels me get off he releases me to turn around and kiss him. Putting his two fingers in our mouths while we kiss. Tasting my juices.
I’m still flush when my Dad comes back in to lock up the house. I’m taking him with me for the night so he doesn’t have to sleep alone in the house he once shared with my Uncle. My Marine friend hops in back and we drop him off at his house. Back at my house we’re texting and he’s pushing for me to meet him. He doesn’t know me so he doesn’t understand that it’s impossible for me to do without big trouble. I know the next day will be very busy so I tell him if he keeps me interested that I will meet him in two days. I ask if he will stay interested and he says that he kinda likes me. We say a few other horny nasty things to each other and my fiancé walks up and pulls the phone out of my hands. He demands to know what I am doing. The phone loses charge and shuts down as soon as it leaves my fingers. Trying to hide my relief I tell him playing scrabble.
The next morning I see my neck is bruised from the biting. Some quick cover up and good as new. I text my Marine friend that he’s marked me. No response. Later I talk to my Dad and he lets me know that my Marine’s friends Mom called my Dad to check on him. I text that to my new friend. No response. I’m starting to feel a bit dirty but I wonder if maybe he’s just not into texting. One more try, so on Wednesday the day we talked about meeting. I sent text early. Nothing. I sent one a little before lunch. Already I’m thinking if this guy comes through I’m not having sex with him. I’ve brought a chess board (we never finished our game) my office had lunch catered so I can bring lunch for free. So I send another text: “Hey, are you still going to meet me for lunch and a little game?” Nothing. A few hours later I text him that an I’m not interested would have been nice and that I’ll stop bugging him and deleted him from my phone. What started with a bang ended with a whimper. Shitty to be rejected but it’s probably better off anyway.
Tags: danceable music, game of chess, rough crowd
(Un)reasonable doubt……
19 SepThis feels weird to write but it’s how I feel. My love, this wonderful man who loves me dearly and is going to move 700 miles to date me I am feeling unsure about our future. It might just be due to the turmoil I’m going through. I look forward to the fun we will have, the experiences we will share and the life we can build together with both of us working hard. Something in me is loosing the enthusiasm I once had. It might just be my own lack of confidence. Things have changed, some days I’m not sure if I’m wanting to talk. Some times I feel pulled away from cleaning and days where I’m with my family and I don’t talk to him I get the feeling he is getting upset because I’m not making time for him. However that might just be in my head from how I was trained to be with Dick.
He is starting to make little moves in his own life towards leaving his wife, his state and his job. Cleaning out old things, paying off debt, having talks with his wife. It is making it all more real. We talked that we would date. That I should date other men and he should date women. His dating he has put into the less important category because he has been single as an adult he has dated and he says he knows what he wants and that is me. Where I have no real experience, I need to squelch any what if’s and see if there is a better match. I worry what if there is or worse what if there is a superficial match and I don’t see the douche in them. Above all what if he changes his whole life to be with me and it doesn’t happen.
Tom went on a romantic get away with his wife. It was more of an attempt to see if there was a spark as they both have talked about feeling like good friends not husband and wife. He said that they did do a bit of kissing at the start but there was virtually nothing else. She didn’t try to cuddle up to him, hold his hand or initiate anything sexual. It was her time of the month but there are other ways to be intimate with your husband and he said there was not so much as a hand in his lap. He called me most of the trip. Telling me how much he loves me and misses me. I was cleaning one night with my Dad and was not near my phone and he called maybe three times and by the last call he sounded pretty disappointed that I had not answered. I am even feeling that he’s needing much more attention than he has ever required even outside of this trip. That is probably normal and the effects of the risks and changes he is taking.
I wonder if all this stems from me starting a relationship at the wrong time. He could really be what I’ve thought for the last year or so…..the best thing that ever happened to me. I still wonder if my attachment came from having such a horrible situation. Or maybe that I’m afraid of loneliness and not finding anyone else. We are very different but a lot of the same. With that said he is very different from Dick. There will be no crazy tweekers, no douchey idiots that we hang out with and party, no doing coke together and he probably will not get along with a lot of the acquaintances that I probably need to get rid of anyway. Those things are kinda scary.
These feelings come and go. In fact since I started writing this Monday they have gone away again and I’m super excited to see him and eventually date him and possibly live the rest of my life with him. I hope this is all normal and not just a away that my subconscious is warning me. Only time will tell. After I get a new life in order with Dick as a co-parent instead of someone I have to worry about every interaction I think things will start to level off.