Shhhh, it’s a secret…..

No one knows about this.  I went on a business trip and met a man who is unique.  We hooked up and have stayed in touch.  The attraction has turned into love.   I have no one to tell how I feel other than my love.  I wish I had someone to tell me what they think.  Good or bad I don’t care.  There are all these crazy feelings inside of me and I have to let them out.  If you choose to read my stories, thank you.  If you choose to leave your opinion thank you again.  If you figure out who I am please don’t tell anyone because it’s a secret.

Edit: My writings have shifted away from the original focus for my blog so I felt it necessary to update this page. I’m a mother of two young boys. I’ve been with their father (my fiancé) for 15 years, now that the party’s over and responsibilities have set in I’m seeing that I have a dangerously unbalanced partnership and I’m torn between trying to save our relationship, just breaking it off and the complacency of just staying on the same path. This all could be destroyed if my fiancé finds out about my affair.

34 Responses to “Shhhh, it’s a secret…..”

  1. elapoulain August 7, 2011 at 1:52 pm #

    I like. Mine’s a secret too!

  2. Mom24Butchers August 24, 2011 at 2:05 pm #

    Me too… secret blog… lol

  3. sexuallifeofawife September 9, 2011 at 9:53 am #

    Have just nominated you for the versatile bloggers award. May bring more views to your site. See my home page for details…lolx

  4. The Hook September 24, 2011 at 11:30 am #

    Very cool page! One of the coolest on WordPress!

  5. f#@*knows September 27, 2011 at 1:34 am #

    Hi, thanks for your comments, likes and subscription to my blog.

    I will need to give yours a read, hope mine doesn’t depress you too much!


    • terriblytorn13 September 27, 2011 at 7:43 am #

      I’m reading it from the start. My jaw hit the floor after reading some of your posts that my life and posts seemed to mirror. My blog isn’t all sex and sunshine either, I should say the same to you if you read my story.

  6. 2Passion November 2, 2011 at 2:35 pm #

    Hey!! Just found your blog. Have had an affair which my wife found out about and have had an ongoing affair since. Lot of hurt. Lot of heart ache. Hope you are not headed there!! Be careful!!!

    Mine’s secret too!!!

    • terriblytorn13 November 2, 2011 at 7:08 pm #

      I might be better off if he finds out and leaves me.

      • Separated Dad February 14, 2012 at 7:57 am #

        This is an interesting comment. I haven’t read your blog yet, so I don’t know the arc of the story. But if you write a comment like this, I have to wonder if you’re ready to leave him. It seems you are, but you haven’t, so there must be something stopping you. Intriguing…

        • terriblytorn13 February 14, 2012 at 9:36 am #

          You’ve hit the nail on the head.
          Thank you for stopping by

  7. mzklever November 23, 2011 at 6:58 am #

    Hi, terriblytorn13.

    You probably don’t know me, and probably haven’t heard of my blog, but I constantly read yours, and ask for the Universe to give you peace and guidance.

    To that end, I nominated you for the “Tell Me About Yourself Award,” in my latest post. The rules are simple… tell seven things about yourself, even better if it’s something not known in your blog, or you can make up something and have it be a pure work of fiction. Then, nominate your 15 favorite blogs, as well.

    Either way, keep writing, keep posting, and keep entertaining me. I’m greedy that way. by Carolyn Bishop, aka Mzklever.

    • terriblytorn13 November 23, 2011 at 10:16 am #

      Thank you Carolyn! I look forward to checking out your blog further, I’ve only been able to poke around a little so far. The award sounds like fun. Hopefully I can continue to entertain you and whoever else reads this thing.

  8. B November 27, 2011 at 3:44 pm #

    Thank you again for the comment you left on my blog today. As for your secret it’s safe with me. I wish you find happiness and that you in turn become honest with yourself and move forward with your life however that may be and know that nothing you do is ever easy, but it is easiest when you are up front from the beginning.

  9. f#@*knows November 29, 2011 at 4:48 am #

    I have nominated you for the versatile blogger/ tell me about yourself award in my most recent post

    • terriblytorn13 November 29, 2011 at 11:19 am #

      I’m flattered you’ve thought of me. Thank you!!!

  10. mstitty January 24, 2012 at 11:41 pm #

    Oh just getting to know your blog.

    I think you are being horribly hard on yourself. A lot of people have affairs. Life is hard, and when you are feeling lonely, and unappreciated, I mean granted am only getting to know your blog, just speaking from my own experience, and someone thinks you are sexy and makes you feel good. Oh God that is hard to resist.

    So you wanted to feel loved and cared about and desired? That is really human.


    • terriblytorn13 January 25, 2012 at 10:53 am #

      Thank you for the kind words. If I don’t expect more from myself than how can I expect more from from my fiance. Honestly, I feel sexy a lot of the time. Us big-breasted women get a lot of attention. I’ve been told the rest of me is not too hard on the eyes either so to feel sexier I usually just flirt a bit more.

      Once I let myself touch him that’s where I lost it. I could have gone on the way I was if I didn’t let that chemical reaction start by kissing and touching him like that. He was not the first guy to be interested in me while I was away on business.

  11. Nicholas Nobody January 26, 2012 at 8:36 pm #

  12. Lieshurtmysanity January 31, 2012 at 7:02 am #

    I truly feel your pain. My heart is with you.

    • terriblytorn13 January 31, 2012 at 7:05 am #

      Thank you, it’s interesting to find some one in a strangely similar situation.

    • terriblytorn13 January 31, 2012 at 1:46 pm #

      Thank you for the kind comment. Mine is also with you

  13. wrongedandrighted February 11, 2012 at 3:22 pm #

    Same boat, sort of, opposite side of the gender fence. But I wish you luck in figuring everything out.
    I enjoyed reading a number of your posts :).

    • terriblytorn13 February 13, 2012 at 3:25 pm #

      Thank you for the comment and the luck, I need it. I’ve enjoyed what I’ve read from your blog as well and will continue to check in.

  14. Softdawnlight March 22, 2012 at 2:07 pm #

    I’ve started reading from the beginning, but I had to stop to comment and ask questions.

    I don’t know where you live, but in some states living together as long as you have had would make him your common law husband. Who has legal rights. Who (in some areas) even can get spousal support from *you* as legally you have willingly supported him.

    This is none of my business. I know that. But please phone a women’s domestic abuse hit line and ask for a referral for legal help. It is so common not to leave because of real finacial and legal problems – but it can be done and you need advice.

    You may not feel your partner is abusive because there are no bruises. But what you have written is bruises and broken bones on the inside.

    Very large apologies for a intense, nosey comment. This is just so close to my heart. Take care.

    • terriblytorn13 March 22, 2012 at 3:19 pm #

      I know in my state people have been awarded palimony. It is one of my fears. I hope he wouldn’t go that route but one can never be sure. No problem for the nosey comment. Please feel free to say anything you wish; good, bad or hairy I’m interested and can learn from it.
      Thank you for commenting and checking out my blog/life.

      • Softdawnlight March 22, 2012 at 3:51 pm #

        I was ready for a tongue lashing. Feel free to do so at anytime. 🙂

        Plan on him getting legal help and pursing spousal support or even child custody on his behalf. Since you will be leaving him and it is not scheduled for tomorrow – plan for the long game. All the little details that you will be dealing with after the separation you can deal with now.

        Look ahead and see if you will be going between jobs in the future, and seperate in that space of time when you are not employed. You might have a job contract already signed, but he doesn’t need to know that.

        When you are frustrated with the situation use that energy to plan.

        This is terribly nosey, and I will always apologize. So again sorry for being nosey. Take care.

        • terriblytorn13 March 22, 2012 at 6:02 pm #

          I currently don’t see leaving as an option. I own the house we live in. I have a job that is an out right blessing sometimes I wonder how this worked out for me and I’m in line to move up. So short of me getting fired or my office getting shut down I don’t see changing jobs in the near future.

          No tongue lashings here, at least there has never been a time when one has been deserved but I have a feeling you will never be the one.

          I peaked at you’re blog and I’m very intresed to learn more. I look forward to reading what you think about what you read.

          Take care

        • Softdawnlight March 25, 2012 at 5:49 pm #

          “…Currently don’t see leaving….” My, I put my foot in it. Sorry.

          My perspective is different. My Mom is 60, my dad 75 and are finally divorcing. 40 years of not being happy. My perspective is that if you divorce after 40 years, maybe because you thought ahead, you might have an advantage. For my Mom divorce was not an option, so she never thought ahead to ease her life’s path.

          I am also naïve and I want a happily ever after for everyone.

          I’m stopped a bit a reading your blog. What you have written is too real life for me, and I need a breather. Sorry.

          I will think of you. From where I stopped reading, you have a lover and I am so glad for you. Take care.

        • terriblytorn13 March 27, 2012 at 8:54 am #

          No sorry needed. I wanted to say thank you for making this comment. Your mentioning how your Mother was unhappy for so long really made me think. At what point do you stop waiting for something to get better before you have to take action. Please don’t take this the wrong way but I’d hate to see 40 years go by waiting for a change that was never ment to happen.
          Thank you and take care.

  15. 2Passion March 27, 2012 at 9:47 am #

    Yep. Makes you think!!

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