It ends not with a whimper but with a bang…..

5 Aug

I still have a night and two days to write about from my last visit with Tom.  We had so much fun.  I feel so at home, so at ease with him.  We wanted to make our time like real life but we couldn’t.  We went out and had fun every night. We never cooked or worked on anything together but we thorourghly enjoyed our time.  It brought us even close together.  With that said I have had a huge change in my life and need to write it out. 

I have been visting with Olaf a bit more than I should.  Not that Tom is upset with it but he has been finding it in his heart to how to deal with our connection.  I have kept Tom in the loop and I have expressed to Olaf my feelings for Tom.  I have also let Olaf know that sometimes his feelings come off stronger than I am comfortable with and I don’t want to lead him on or hurt him.  I feel an attraction and a strong friendship but it is going to be second to my love for Tom. 

So as you know I’ve kissed Olaf.  We’ve also met several times in the night and he has spanked my ass very nicely.  We talk about a lot our past relationships, my current situation, the kids, his current situation, BDSM, music.  He’s becoming a good friend and with my current situation having someone who knows what’s going on that I can open up to is a huge release.  

Olaf and his wife have discussed his polyamorous nature and she is not able to come to terms with it so the are living as very good friends.  She is in love with him but he loves her but without any infatuation.  Their sexual desires are not aligned either.  So now he is free to date and has evenings and weekends available to do as he pleases.  This all started because of the kiss we shared, he discussed this with Dick and I on the porch the other day but leaving out that the interest, the girl was me. 

I was texting with him advice on how to get things moving with Dick.  That I was going to speak to him and set a deadline to either move out locally or fly home to his Mommy.  Olaf suggested I have a more solid plan and he wanted to talk to me help me plan.  Alright I set the stage take off to clear my mind with a drive.  I take a journal with me that has suff about my relationship at home and with Tom and Olaf just incase I want to make notes or refer him to my past writings.  The journal never gets used.  We talk and have a nice night and it ends with a few kisses and a nice spanking.

I get home late and Dick is playing video games.  Chair in the middle of the  room close to the TV and bong on the table next to him.  The kids nestled in their beds sleeping.  He wants to watch TV with me so I sit and leave my purse in the kitchen.  I doze off quickly and wake up to him screaming in my face who is Tom!!!  Over and over.  Calling me names, lying cheating whore, fucking cunt, slut, disgusting cow…yelling that I kissed Olaf who was supposed to be his friend.  He’s over me eyes wide and all I can say is don’t hurt me.  He yells it back don’t hurt you??? I say physically don’t hurt me.  He moves away and takes my journal shredding it.  He did it to my diary too when we first dated.  It had accounts of the boys I fooled arround with before him and it made him angry so he destroyed that recount of my past too. 

He’s running arround yelling.  He goes into the kitchen and grabs a wooden chair and holds it over his head.  I think he’s going to hit me with it so I cower.  He smashes it into the ground.  I’m responding to his yelling that I would never have done it if he treated me right.  I was faithful for 14 years and I told him to leave, I told him I don’t want him.  That my lover isn’t moving in the second he steps out the door.  I need to be alone.  I want him gone.  He smashes the chair on the ground again and storms into the garage.  I text Olaf he only lives a few streets over and Dick could be there in a heart beat.  He tells me Dick is already on the phone with him cussing him out.  There is nothing left to do.  It’s 2:30am in the morning and I have to work the next day.  I work alone on the weekends there is no calling in sick. 

I lay in my bed trying to rest and he comes in yelling.  He takes the mattress and picks the thing up over his head and tosses me off and throws it on top of me.  I’m starting to get scared I’m thinking I need to call the police and then I hear the knock.  I think it’s Olaf but when Dick opens the door it’s the police.  He moves the bong and we step outside.  We tell them I haven’t been touched and they let us know more than one home has called them.  They question us both separately and the one that is with Dick asks if he’s intoxicated.  He says no, the officer says last time I came you were shit faced and peeing in the closet before you hit your old lady.  The officer watching over me gestures to the bong and they over to Dick.  I say it’s his, he asks if I smoke and I said on occasion.  He asks if there is a grow here.  I tell him no (well not now anyway it’s shut down but all the stuff is still there). 

They decide he should leave.  So he goes.  Takes the car and gone into the night.  The boys were snuggled quietly in their beds when I checked on them and went to sleep.  I got up early and called my Mom she says I can take the kids to her so I can work.  I tell her the cliff notes and head off to work.  Waiting to see what Dick will do next.

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6 Responses to “It ends not with a whimper but with a bang…..”

  1. confessionsofyourhusbandsmistress August 5, 2012 at 4:55 pm #

    Oh sweetheart, it’s time to go. Get away from him as quickly as you can. For your safety, the kid’s safety, and your sanity.

    • terriblytorn13 August 7, 2012 at 6:53 am #

      We’ve been staying at my Mom’s but the house is mine. I’ve told him he needs to stay somewhere else by the end of the week.

  2. I know that, but August 5, 2012 at 9:35 pm #

    A bang indeed! How do you feel? Are you present, numb or looking forward to what comes next?

    I will be thinking of you and I hope very much that you and your boys will be well and safe.

    Big hugs of strength to you.

    • terriblytorn13 August 6, 2012 at 10:37 am #

      I am looking forward to what comes next. I’m a little nervous about child care, the burden I will be to the ones I love. I am worried about what getting him out of my house completely will entail 15 years of stuff is hard to sift through and he won’t make it easy. I do feel solid, focused and confident. This is for the best and it will get easier.

  3. The Hook August 7, 2012 at 6:13 am #

    Get away from this Dick guy – fast!

    • terriblytorn13 August 7, 2012 at 6:51 am #

      Dick, my ex-fiance feels very entitled. We have 15 years worth of stuff two kids and he has no job or family in the area. I’m trying but not having luck getting him to stay away. Starting to put legal action on the table.

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