I want to be there so bad……

2 Sep

I’m just venting.  My love is going to a weekend festival of sorts.  Lots of punk and hard rock bands.  Camping drinking and general lawlessness.  He is bringing his three-wheeler, his shot-gun and a bunch of beer.  There will be lots of smoking (of which he does not partake) and drug use.  Basically a crazy weekend party/camp out with bands.  Oh how I want to shrug of my responsibilities and party with him.  He says he would love to have me there with him.  I tell him go have fun, I won’t expect to hear from him untill Tuesday.  He says he will be texting me if he has signal and if he gets any pictures of boobs he will send them to me.  I love how we interact.  We would have so much fun together.  I hate the reality that I will probably never get to be with him like that.  At least not untill I’m pushing 40 and he’s almost 50 (I’m 32 and he’s 41) and yes we are still acting like kids.  Just one more reason why I love him so.  I hate to think by the time I get my hands on him for good he’ll be to broken down to enjoy sleeping on the ground and partying all night.  I don’t plan on giving those things up (of course only on occasional basis).  As he parties the holiday weekend away I’ll be working.  He does have to work too so I expect to talk to him maybe even video chat when he is in town for work.  He’s going to spend tonight out there and go back out the next day for another night.  I hate to say it but I hope he can’t stop thinking of me while he watches all those other chicks party.

3 Responses to “I want to be there so bad……”

  1. sexuallifeofawife September 3, 2011 at 9:49 am #

    If he’s happy sleeping on the ground and partying all night now at 41 – he’ll probably still be ok in 7/8 years time — especially if he takes care of himself…
    I really feel for you and the situation you are in.
    Does he feel the same way about you as you do about him?

    • terriblytorn13 September 3, 2011 at 1:53 pm #

      Thank you!
      Some times I think he does and sometimes I have my doubts. He tells me he wants to kiss me good night and kiss me good morning too. That he wants to have dinner ready when I get home from work. We talk about going on road trips together and concerts. He has a good life where he is. He has only been there five years and married for two. I think to be with me it would restrict his life style. His kid is a teenager and lives with his ex so he has a lot of freedom. We’ve talked often that a lot can happen in 5 years that now it may not work but later who knows. I had told him before he’s not my type. He said the same thing about me but he said that girls like me don’t usually give him the time of day. He says I’m like a fantasy girl for him. When we’re together, he feels bulletproof. It’s super sweet but I wonder if fantasy is all I am for him.

  2. sexuallifeofawife September 4, 2011 at 1:20 pm #

    I guess, time will tell…
    I really hope it works out…

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